jessee sue

Thu, 25 May 2006 22:38:01 GMT

ahhh, so i have decided to do an update...
here goes...
so after much consideration and thought i have come to the conclusion that i mustve had Mono or something very close to it (my friend Erin had it, and we pretty much had the same symptons)... which would explain the past 4 weeks of being completely out of it, tired, and just plain weak. im starting to feel a little better, just a little. i cant be sick now, im too far behind as it is...
my sleep schedule is even more messed up than my health.
i now am going to sleep around 6-7am and waking up around 3-5pm... i hardly see the light of day, and usually end up sleeping on the couch, i only sleep in the bed when jc is off the next day, otherwise it feels too big and empty.
in way other news, it was my sister Ashleys 19th birthday today, i wasnt expecting to see her, but while waiting for a bus back from the post office i decided to text her and ask about seeing a movie, she said "sure, ill come get you" (or something along those lines)... she actually could too b/c she just got a new car, a Scion XB to be exact, the same car (and color) that i may be getting soon (she thinks itd be cute to match!)... we hung out for a little while, didnt actually see a movie, but did go to the mall, which was really nice... i really miss my family... and its even worse that they live 25-30 mins away!!!
i just dont drive yet....

so on that note... i may be cutting back on the website for a bit after i get my car, i think im going to try and get a real job... im not cut out for this anyway... its obvious.
i can make the necklaces, but i cant handle everything else, i keep accidently screwing up left and right, no matter how hard i try and how well i think im doing, something is always stewing in the background...
anyway, theres this screenprinting place about 20 mins away that pays pretty well, especially sinse im already trained!!!
however i cant get the job till i have a car, which brings me back to the fact that im exausted, and would love to take a week off...
but i have 2-3 craft shows coming up, and i need to get together a down payment for this car!!!!!! b/c i have horrible luck with used cars, and feel a new one would be great for me...

enough rambling, its been 26 hours sinse i slept...
i think i need to go lay down!

Tue, 02 May 2006 03:18:26 GMT

ahhh...
so i have time for an actual life update. even if its only for myself...

soo, im still sick... i started with a small cold, then constant migraines, then a full blown flu while on my period... now i can hardly walk in a straight line... i have an infection that has pretty much taken over my entire body, and i dont have insurance yet. i think i may be taking myself to the hospital soon if i dont get better...
in other news, i am going to Raleigh, North Carolina this weekend for the Handmade Market Craft Fair...
more info can be found here:
http://www.thehandmademarket.com/
also, ill be taking a short day trip to Providence next tuesday, get some supply shopping done, so i can be prepared for the oncoming craft fairs... hopefully ill get better by then... i plan on flying up early morning and flying back late night, so there will be no rest for me the entire day.
being this sick kinda scares me... its to the point that i dont think i could walk the few blocks to the post office, or im scared im not balanced enough to drive my scooter...
im even scared to walk up the stairs, b/c im afraid ill fall down... im home alone most of the time, so its really getting to me.
this is my busy time of the year, i want to get out, go places, exercise...
but i dont even have the energy for that.
i may go to a concert thursday (not a show, a real concert)... my moms boyfriend was supposed to take my little sister (age 11) and his daughter to see Fall Out Boy, Hawthorn Heights and All American Rejects at Merriweather near my moms house... however today while fixing my scooter he kinda hinted that he didnt want to go, and my mom said i could take them instead as long as i get better...
im tempted to lie.
they have hills and seats... ill be able to enjoy bubbly pop punk without getting tired!
oh, that reminds me... i think im going to warped tour this year. its finally close by, in columbia... like a mile from my moms house... and AFI, Bouncing Souls, Joan Jett, Anti Flag, Saves the Day, and many more bands i actually still like are playing... its the day before we leave for Renegade, but i still thinks itll be worth it... hopefully im better, b/c BANE is also that week!!!!
finally!

oh well, enough ramblings from a sick girl for one night.

Thu, 27 Apr 2006 20:56:57 GMT

Baltimore City:

i decided to actually leave the house today... i accidently got off on the wrong stop, and had to walk a few blocks to the bead store... i took some photos along the way

more photos can be seen here

im so glad to be back in the city!

Sun, 23 Apr 2006 07:47:21 GMT

Picture of the Day:

Me in 98 - High School - I was 16

side note:
i hated those glasses, when we went shopping for my glasses, i kept picking out the 'geek glasses', i even told my mom they were artsy, and i was going to art school that summer (precollege), she said no b/c theyd go out of style in a year...
shows what she knew!

Sun, 16 Apr 2006 18:55:47 GMT

My new Little Small Clothespin Person by The Small Object
i received her in the mail a few days ago... i am temp. keeping her on the desk till i can get a shadow box.
ive also decided to put my very large Juxtapose necklace as sold out, and keep it for myself in a shadow box too... it is my favorite, and it is too big for anyone to really wear... so why not.
itll look nice on the wall...

so, about the walls... i was wondering if anyone has had any luck hanging photo with the command strip hooks? our walls are half drywall, half plaster... and its so hard to hang things, so i just started using the hook for all the lightweight tapestries, and im wondering if theyll also work for framed artwork?

im afraid to find out by trying it out... b/c last week we had one of our shelves that was about 18+ ft off the ground fall off the wall and down the stairs!... luckily no one was underneath it! luckily...
all i need is for a larger frame to come crashing down on my and make me fall down the stairs!

Sat, 08 Apr 2006 00:01:37 GMT

'Just Because' photo:

my second tattoo... its been redone 3 times and ive had it for 5 years

for anyone who isnt into poppy punk, its the ball head guy logo for the band The Bouncing Souls...
i sometimes forget about it, until i get undressed or take a shower, or when spring comes and i wear my pants a bit shorter (like in the photo)
hes starting to lose some detail, and im super pale...
i dont regret it... its been 5 years though... lets see what i say in 20.
i dont regret any of my tattoos.

im actually getting 3 more in the next few months (when i can afford it)
ill post pictures afterwards. :)

Fri, 07 Apr 2006 00:56:20 GMT

More photos of my new home:

Thu, 06 Apr 2006 00:08:51 GMT

so i havent updated this journal in a long while
i decided to let you all in on whats been up the past month or so...

picture heavy!

- i moved, i live in Baltimore now:

- i closed up shop for a little while b/c the move got to me, but have been working hard on getting it back up.

- i went to the zoo with Erin and Paul:

- we also went to the aquarium, JC came too:

- i went duck pin bowling with the family:

- ive caught up on Degrassi: the Next Generation due to week long marathon theyve had

- weve gone out to dinner with Dan and Tamara alot.

- WORKING! alot... i have 12 special orders, 2 large wholesale orders, im a semi finalist for the fredflare.com Next Big Thing contest, and i have 2 craft shows coming up, plus maybe more...

thats it for now... more pictures later.

Tue, 24 Jan 2006 04:11:05 GMT

Photo of the Day:

this is an older photo, but i really like how bright it is!
it was taken at the Washington DC zoo, i was chaperoning my sisters high school photo field trip.
i had done that field trip myself 3 times when i was in high school
i love the dc zoo... so many memories! and no ugly black metal cages!!!!!!

Mon, 09 Jan 2006 01:10:12 GMT

Good News: Jc found my scooter keys!!!!

Bad News: its Winter... what use do i have with a scooter in the winter??!?

anyway... working on ym site update right now... my fingers are killing me, but i was able to get 4 necklaces and 2 pendants out...
i hope to get 6 done every other day... so basically 3 a day... not bad...

and tomorrow was supposed to be my big update... but it turns out Erin is coming up from Richmond... which is like a once every couple months type of event... so i am going to baltimore to meet up with her to see An Albatross at the Ottobar!
if i get any video of synchronized jerking off, ill post it!!!

(for this who dont know... that usually happens at an An Albatross show)
and for any B-More people interested heres the 'scoop':

An Albatross
Jakuta and Carl
Yukon
New Age Hillbilly
Doors at 8pm/Show at 9pm. ALL AGES

Sat, 07 Jan 2006 22:59:35 GMT

For my own pleasure i have gone and gotten a flickr account...
i have also gone and finally uploaded the pix of my old appartment...
i like looking at them b/c it was my home and im sad we had to leave so quickly...

i would like to share these photos with all you
(if your interested)

i have been told JC and I have ok taste

also you might be able to tell, theres two distinct styles...
the brighter rooms are me
the darker ones are JC

Sat, 07 Jan 2006 21:50:56 GMT

sooo my very sweet bf got me a late present... it came in the mail yesterday...

check them out:

it's the whole gang! and they even came in a box shaped like fosters!!

if some of you didnt know this yet, you will now know...
among all the other types of dorks i am (example: anime dork, camera nerd, scfi dork) i am also a toy collector...

below is a picture of the toys ive bought/received sinse moving to frederick 4 monthes ago:

Adam West is the mayor:

this is maybe 1/8 of what i own, possibly less... all my other toys are packed away in boxes waiting to be taken out at our "new home" (wherever or whatever it may be)

its kinda nice sharing how much of a huge nerd i am :)

Thu, 05 Jan 2006 21:38:04 GMT

Mon, 02 Jan 2006 01:31:51 GMT

I am easily excited...

None More Black is touring!!! a band i like alot... and a band that happens to have the same singer as one of my fav bands (Kid Dynamite for anyone out there who doesnt know this)...

anyone want to go???

None More Black
02/01/06 : Richmond, VA Nanci Raygun w/ New Mexican Disaster Squad, Western Addiction
02/02/06 : Baltimore, MD The Talking Head w/ New Mexican Disaster Squad, Western Addiction
02/03/06 : Philadelphia, PA First Unitarian Church w/ New Mexican Disaster Squad, Western Addiction

i havent been to a show in ages...

and i said i would only go if any of these bands played:

Bane, None More Black, Panic (which will be touring again soon), another Kid Dynamite or Lifetime Reunion, American Nightmare reunion, Hot Cross, Bouncing Souls...

i think thats it...
im super picky...
but ive been going to shows for soooooo long that its ok to be picky :):):)

Fri, 30 Dec 2005 04:57:02 GMT

im exausted...
such a nice way to start an entry...

the craft shows are over, and hopefully will be over till may/june...
xmas is over too... thank god... i will miss the holiday hours at the mall though.
i got alot of sweet things... i have to return a few (counting a pair of sweet ass wellies with sparrows screenprinted on them) damn my large calves, their not even fat, their actually muscle (weird)

my sleep schedule is super fucked up. so bad i though today was tuesday. i dont even see sunlight anymore.
i goto sleep around 5am, and wake up around 2-4pm, but sinse we keep a dark house, its like its night to me.
my sis got me Sims 2 for xmas... that thing totally sucks up time... in a bad way... im going to have to retire it for a few weeks starting monday. otherwise ill never get any work done.
i also got a bunch of DVDs, and ive been watching them non stop. my fav at the moment is UNDeclared (by the guy who did Freaks and Geeks) i stayed up till 5am watching half the episodes last night. i totally plan on watching the rest tonight... also, i bought WE LOVE KATAMARI... and i totally beat it in 1 day!!!! wtf??
so not worth $30 if it only took 1 day to beat...

i also have been spending a disgusting amount of time on AIM. ive been talking to alot of my old friends... i may meet up with my friend Danny P in the next few weeks, sinse hes staying with his family, and their close by. Ive also been talking to jordan alot... one of the few people i talk to for more than 15 minutes. and we both have fucked up sleeping schedules...so it makes it conveinant too...

i think im losing weight... my eating schedule is just as messed up as my sleeping schedule. i eat 1 meal a day, and if im lucky 2.
its hard to make anything in this house sinse everyone is so damn anal about things ALWAYS being clean. and i dont eat the same things as them... at all!
ive been living off of waffle house and chipotle... i also have been exercising alot...
ill be back down to a size 10 or smaller soon enough.

im getting my tattoo next week (if my sis isnt busy)... half sleeves... i cant wait... ill get her to take pictures...

also, i still dont know whats going on with my living situation, i promised JC id stick around at least till we move... he thinks its only bad b/c of where were living...
i hope thats it...
i miss baltimore alot...

oh well... thats it for now...

Fri, 23 Dec 2005 21:31:15 GMT

today was last minute family pictures day

i descide to share our photos:




This is my little sis Cori	and This is my little bro Keygun

Fri, 02 Dec 2005 22:01:16 GMT

well hello LJ land...

im sorry my posts here have been so few and so unmeaningful...
ive been super duper busy, and hardly have time to type anything down...

so here i go:

-i think i have mono, i am always tired, never have any energy, have horrible chest pains that cant be explained, and im super depressed... im not happy with my living situtation and i wish i dindt love jc as much as i do, otherwise id have already left and moved back to baltimore... at least there i can walk around, drive my scooter (that i lost the keys to somehow) and get myself wherever needed without a car.

-were trying to get my back 'on the road' by february... ill probably be driving a car owned by jc, but i hope to get a motorcycle of my own, no payments, and hardly eats up gas... and it will just be nice to be able to go places again on/in my own vehicle.

-i do most of my 'work' at night or late late at night, and lately b/c ive been making so many necklaces, my hands start to hurt and i have to take 30-45 min breaks... during these breaks lately ive been reading my old journal (kidxdynamite18)... it was from 2001-2004. when i apparently was crazy!... i didnt even remeber 1/4 of what i typed in there... i was a sad, depressed, lonely person who drove everyone away with her negative attitude...
also, i talked to my journal as if it was a person... as if it were my therapist... it probably was... i did however enjoy the fact that i trully spoke my word. something i havent done in the past 3 years... ive kinda suppresed myself to fit into the world im in now. it kinda makes me sad, and i kinda long for the hectic world i use to have...
when i never knew what i was doing the next, or better yet, the next hour...
when i met sooo many new people, that i wouldnt remeber their names or even faces the next day...
when i had friends who would randomly come visit me, knock on my window, and sit on my front porch and talk about how things use to be...
i hate that all i think about now is how things use to be...

-im having weird dreams lately too, old friends faces keep popping up... and i so badly want to talk to them all...
i did talk to ahron and jordan this week... both kinda dull, catching up, we dont know what were doing with our lives anymore type of conversations... but it was still nice, i always enjoyed having ahron around, and jordan was my fav person when i was in high school, and no matter how shitty hes been to me or ive bene to him, i can still say hey every so often...

-i have 2 craft fairs coming up, 7 days before the first one, and 13 days before the ssecond one (i think)...
im tired all the time, and dont want to make anything... its starting to get kinda hard...
first off, ill start making a necklace, then ill space out and realize 20 minutes later that ive been staring at the wall, and all i have to show for that time is a half finished necklace... also, im frustrated with making the same thing over and over and over again... i think i have craft ADD, or something like it.
i have about half the stock i need for Boston, and no stock for brooklyn... also i fucked up and forgot to get my tax forms in for brookjlyn and now i have to go up a day earlier than JC and stand in line to get my vendor tax id... god im stupid...

-my new tree displays havent come in yet, meaning i cant start building the base until they do... they need to get here in 7 days... otherwise all my necklaces will be just laying on the table

-ive descided to start exercising... i gain a bit too much weight after all those kidney problems and after my asthma got so bad i could hardly walk upstairs without almsot passing out... yes, for anyone who doesnt know what i look like, im a chubby girl...
ive always been chubby, just not THIS chubby.

-i need to go print 50 clutches, i have been having problems with ym screens, hopefully i can fix them soon

Tue, 22 Nov 2005 22:47:17 GMT

ok, Boston people!

ive never been to Boston, but im trying to book a hotel for Bazaar Bizarre (early i found out, is better). i would like something easy to get to, affordable (since i also need hotels for brooklyn 5 days later), and something near public transit (subway or commuter train) i wont be the one driving, and i would like to wonder around the saturday before... and i heard the transit system isnt too bad (one of my old roommates was from boston)
also, any suggestions of places to go would be great!

thanks and sorry for all the ()'s!

xposted

Mon, 14 Nov 2005 21:01:10 GMT

ahhh!!! what did i get myself into?

2 craft shows within 5 days of each other???

i signed up for the BUST Craftacular, b/c i figured i could find someone to share a table... but i found no one, and i was stupid and signed up anyway, now i have to have enough stock to fill the table! and be there alll day bymyself :( after i will be by myself in boston 5 days earlier...

argh!

sooo, anyone out there want to share a table at the Bust Craftacular? it would be $50 and its 12 hours... so i know its not tempting, but please let me know!

Mon, 14 Nov 2005 01:08:20 GMT

oooohhhh, i just found the best thing ever for me!

a USB record player

it hooks to your computer to transfer stuff from vinyl to mp3 format!... all those albums that only came out on vinyl or all those 7" that have never been on cd...!!!!!!!!!

now all those records i have can be on my ipod!!!!!

back story:

i had about 300 cds stolen... from where i dont know... after it happened i descided to only buy records... i figured if someone was going to steal 300 records, then all power to them... id even wish them luck carrying them...
more back story on me: i have a record player tattoo on my right arm, the image was taken from the comic book Pounded on Oni Press, its a picture of a hand putting the needle on the record :)

Tue, 08 Nov 2005 04:58:03 GMT

The my sister erased all the pictures she hated on my digital camera, so i will post pix of her tattoo post

My Sister Ashley	Her Dead Swallow
...	...

so it was nice. i hung out with my little sis today. she got her first tattoo... at the same place i got my last ones.
and then we had a cheese filled lunch at the olive garden.... did you know they have an appetizer that is just mozzarella cheese in a bowl with bread on the side!? sooo much cheese!... and i also finally got to dye my hair!... i was seriously half grey! i even had a streak of grey on my left side like in the x-men.
i also got to see my little brother and my other little sister. it was nice!
i miss seeing ym family so much...

anyway, im feeling a little better, im kinda regretting not doing handmade arcade on saturday. but i cant kid myself, i wouldnt have been ready. i might still go and do some shopping and stuff. ive never been to pittsburgh, and i was looking forward to meeting so many people.

we'll see, if i feel better by saturday, i might go. :)

Mon, 07 Nov 2005 00:03:28 GMT

ohhh, i sooo want this!

when i worked at fotoimage a guy came in with books and books a slides that where taken like this!... they were sooo cool to look at, and very 3D...

i need to make more necklaces so i can afford it :)

Sat, 05 Nov 2005 02:22:26 GMT

im imagining most fo you guys didnt know this but... this is my 3rd!!! live journal... ive had one since july 2001.
but i keep changing the names.
i went back and looked at a few entries from my last one, and wow have i changed!!!
i use to rely on my best friend to be there for me always, i never thought id have a meaningful lasting relationship (ive been with jc for 3 years now) and i never knew what i wanted to be when i grew up! (i want to be an art teacher)
it makes me happy to be where i am now... i just wanted to get that out in the open!

AND IF YOUR INTERESTED, MY OLD LJ NAME WAS KIDXDYNAMITE18

Thu, 03 Nov 2005 17:33:08 GMT

sooo, turns out im sick AGAIN!... i was sick for a week and a half, now im sick again... but this time its alot worse.
it seems to be the same week every year, i end up with bronchitis... they say its b/c of the weather change and my asthma.
but anyway, it sucks alot b/c im doing Handmade Arcade next saturday, and i have NO stock, b/c i was expecting to do it last week, but i was sick, then i got sick again this week... i dont have enough energy to do ANY necklaces... let alone sit in front of a sewing machine without getting tired (luckily after a freak accident with my last one, i got a sewing machine that will NEVER sew through my finger... its got a sensor or something)
i think im going to have to make the decision soon, but i dont think im doing Handmade Arcade :(:(:(

which makes me very sad.

i dont want to be the flaky person!

argh. :(

Thu, 03 Nov 2005 04:44:32 GMT

soo, im totally on a DIY shopping spree! and i totally found something i want, but cant descide on which one!

so i need help people

coin puches by the Small Object!

i like this one because i live soo close to DC
and its soo cute

i like this one because i had someone say that to me once
and i thought it was soo cute
(even though i totally turned him down :(, he was too young for me)

i know, i know, pointless post!!!

p.s.:the second pouch says "i would really like to hold your hand"